Nikkie's Confessions

Beautiful Song

2009-06-10T13:18:00.002+08:00

*i got this song from baby eena's blog*

"it feels so different like everything has changed"
we dont even talk like before, i am just so in love with you
*cries*

SENTOSA AGAIN :)

2009-06-10T12:52:00.002+08:00

HEY all, went sentosa with TGIF peeps yst.super tired but totally lotsa fun.volleyball was really fun.i just wish last year mr chin would take me in Volleyball lor.hais,now its too late cos' im the assistant leader of indian dance & there is no way i can quit!! miss sports alot ever since i left Primary School ): anyways,there were imah and miiyda and me as a team and we did not win. 2 sets tie,last set lost! Nevermind,who cares anyway. idk about the others but i had lotsa fun while playing haha(: Muscles are aching today,and yst i sprain my hip bone! F***ing pain sia...and had Fever too cos' my damn was dunk badly in the sea by JUSTIN.wow!!! so much fun had to come to an end! so yupss,just waiting for the next outing or camp cos' i cant go for TGIF anymore cos' ive got my crew prac,yeah(: Will Miss Everyone Lots. Loves<3

PS.post pics as soon as i get them from IMAH.

FIRST PRAC

2009-06-06T21:54:00.002+08:00

hey people.yst was fun,lepak for a while with baby eena.missed her so much ^_^
first SYD'Crew prac was very fun too.learnt the proper way to do down bounce.at first idk how to do but ok la. we did a little choreography,i really gotta work on that.it totally looks retarded when i do it cos' i cant link one of the step to the other.hahahahah(: wanna laugh at myself!! walked home with Keneth (sry if wrong spelling).

btw, (1) i cant attend my teacher's ROM. shit man!!!!
(2) i cant go for the next Crew prac. even shiter!!!!
(3) im going to malaysia on Fri till Sun!! cool,but boohoo2!!!

2day sucks, im was totally not feeling well cos' yesterday i skip breakfast,ate beancurd for lunch and skipped dinner. my stomach has technical failure this morning,but had no choice gotta go for dance class and ndp prac after that.super flushed out liao. T_T wanna sleep. goodnight darlings(:

Inspire & Shine - Pantene

2009-06-04T00:26:00.002+08:00

You do not have to be like others to be extrodinary; be yourself. Others may have looked down on you but you must never let that stop you from what you want to do or want to get.

"Music is a visible thing. Close your eyes. You will see." Feel the music and let it go; dance! i know some peeps may look down on me and my own crew, 2point3degrees. but i am not giving up! I will NEVER give up my passion for DANCE.

Live to Dance & Dance to Inspire:-

YO (:

2009-06-03T22:56:00.002+08:00

hey hey!! school sucked......until (H) , (M) & me escaped!! while Mrs Koh was talking towards the laptop,we ran out one by one!!!weeee,School Break! anyways, waiting for 2mlr....humanities project.muahahaha(: Dance class at night, finally gonna have proper lunch with my dearie (K). loves<3 cant wait for my very first training too,*yeah yeah*

better snuggle in bed now!!! goodnites peeps.

always loved!!

SYD'Crew orientation.

2009-06-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

Senior!!

had lots of fun with the crew! i can proudly say its MY CREW now.haha(: i love SYD'Crew super lots.i learn news games,more brothers and sisters. it was 5 times craziest then mambo night. haha(: cant wait for the first training on friday,and its at the other end of the island. well, for me la, its at tampanis. so i want to improve or build up my discipline. yupsss,hopefully(: anyways cheers to my new family(NO.3). *put your hands up and say yeah, yeah, yeah*

Mambo Night

2009-06-02T21:03:00.006+08:00

hello people.Mambo Night rocked to the core.i can say it was a splendid reward for doing the Recycling Project in the morning.everyone looked hansome and pretty that night,really! Fatimah won best dressed.i must say she did deserve it.haha(: that was the craziest night ive been to. Dance,dance and dance that night!!!! it was like a little 80s pub, special thanks to the DJs . Also thanks to everyone there who made that night crazy(: there are more pics but too many..haha(:

PS.*he* dance with me...

Youth Leadership Academy 5 Pics

2009-06-02T20:39:00.006+08:00

hey ya'll! these are the pics taken on the camp.i miss the camp like super lots(: love them too.

NINCHE....

busy

2009-05-26T11:14:00.002+08:00

YLA5 rocks to the core.love SLs from NINCHE.
once a APACHE, always a APACHE....

anyways,kindda busy with e-learning and other stuff.i really promise to update about camp by the end of this week!!

lovess(:

2009-05-20T19:19:00.004+08:00

hello everyone.the whole FILPSYAH went JP to watch 'The Uninvited'. there was a part i actually teared. haha(: the story was ohkay la.the sudden popping out of the characters were frightening and shocking,other then that the story can understand la. BUT IM NOT SATISFIED.

the idiot girl killed the cute guy,,,heellloooo??? nevermind.haha(: hayati turns 15 today. aqeela too. haha. she'll get bashed up 2mlr...

aniways,i find this mv really nice.hope you like it too(: gtg,lovess

PS./ dance class tomorrow,yeah!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6aTUq3xGX60

WEEE.i had fun!

2009-05-19T22:41:00.006+08:00

hello everyone! i went shopping with miiyda and imah today. it was crazy. at first went to get my dress from Secret Island, iluma, for 2mlr party. just 15 bucks,sales. then went to esplanade. cammhored like shit. made our way to jp cos imah wanted to get a tube for her dress that she's gonna use 2mlr too(: i feet hurts.i must get used to high heels again!!

ohkay ohkay,2mlr there's some charity stuff in school for the NYAA. gotta be in school by 8am. i better head to bed now.ill camhore lots 2mlr tooo.

loves<3

2009-05-18T22:01:00.005+08:00

hello people.ive no school tomorrow and and on Wednesday(: yay. going shopping with miiyda and imah and also collect passport! on Wed im going to school to do some charity thing for the NYAA with susu and imah. then in the afternoon the whole FLIPSYAH going to watch "Uninvited". cant wait.btw,its hayati's birthday. heehee(:

On Friday, im going for some young leaders camp. Suhailah, Imah, Fitri and Aliffa going too. looking forward!!! unfortunately P******,sec 2, from Indian Dance going but on Wed Susu and me gonna persuade Mrs Rajoo to allow Miiyda go tooooo(: FYI, she is the new member in Indian Dance.great or what babe??? haha(:

anyways, ive gotta sleep now.lovess<3

PS./ CANT WAIT FOR MAMBO NIGHT.LETS BOOGIE PEOPLE(:

OVER

2009-05-15T12:49:00.004+08:00

my instructor GIN. she is hot!she is wearing grey pants and blue top(:

hello people.the blast is finally over! only got talip paper on monday.tues no need go sch. wed no school!hayati birthday(: yay. btw, yesterday was the first lessonfor REGGEA at oschool. my spine hurts! hip isolation is stuff. must practice....cant wait for next thursday!!!

anyway,thats all.i want to knock out.loves

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2009-05-12T17:55:00.007+08:00

RANDOMS:enjoys spot my name(: i know its stupid!

Swatthi(;

Shivani(:

Tanjong Pagar Railway stn(:

Chemistry vs. Retro layout

Mama Minah aka Kakak Ketot

hello everyone. well had my mathematics paper one & physics earlier today.and what can i say. just as i expected. Physics was really simple,just as the other revision worksheets we've practise and unfortunately i cant say the same for my maths la. half the paper and my head when off! literally. after all the algebrics words and long equations, i actually froze out. my head started spinning and i suddenly had an painful headache & the only thing i did was pray not to pass out and pushing myself. i felt really weak at that time.

*anyway some how did nonsense and left lots of questions worth about 20 marks. gosh*

i dont want to drop out,yet i dont want to fail all the time. so ive really made up my mind of getting job during the june holis and going to ms zaheera tuition...must must!geography paper 2mlr and gotta memorise hard. im only going to depend on my Humans, Sciences, English & FnN for the MYE. the other kana sai la!!!

ohkay ohkay, gonna study. loves to all(:

OH MY GOODNESS

2009-05-10T10:43:00.002+08:00

hello everyone! there is a bad news and good news. ill start with the bad news!

BAD NEWS: 2 MORE DAY TO STUDY FOR THE BLAST

last 2 days to study for 5 subjects and im soo soo soo scared of maths. hais. 2mlr gonna have a study date with miiyda & susu begum. yeah(: cant wait....

GOOD NEWS: I GOT INTO SYDC!!!!!!!!!

omgomgomg!! this morning i got a msg from heng yuan "congrats for getting into SYDC (:", i was still half asleep so i slept again.hahaha(: so i woke up at 10 and did the basics & ran to the comp and went straight to SYDC blog.gues what? my name was there in the results list,yay!!! but it was spelt as LuRenia instead of LuVenia. its pronounced as "LOVE" people NOT "LUR". ohkay. nevermind.im in sydc!!!!yay yay yay.im very happy that nicholas and heng yuan made it too.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.

my uncle will be treating my grandmother in the afternoon.great.cant wait!

NDP

yesterday ndp height orientation rawked! we had to go up 7 story tower and stand close to the edge of the open window.at first it was scary but later on it felt great being up there.but i think due to my first expression,the army guy put me in the middle level. hais. must prove i can go to heigher level. i dont want to be seperated from Shivani....nonono!anyways,trainings starts next saturday i guess.jiayou me.

PRAYERS

PS. lets all pray for the speedy recover of all from the Swine Flu & for its early containment of the H1N1 thingy. regardless of religion,lets work hard for everyone to be healthy & safe.

thank you SYDC,and thats all ive gotta post for today.so lovess to all(:

hello(:

2009-05-05T20:59:00.002+08:00

today is just such an ordinary day.nothing much seriously,except for getting bulllied by Mirzwn, Amali & KAMAL. hahaha(:hais. btw all the papers that have past were easy to absorb as there were some days break before each paper. but next week is a HUGE blast. 7 papers in 4 days!! oh my.....really really gonna push myself hard.I SERIOUSLY AM.gonna get a short break on friday and there ill go again till Monday.celebrating vesak day(:

thats all darling,lovess^__^

*i must survive*

SHOUTOUT ^____^ SWINE FLU

2009-05-04T18:05:00.005+08:00

helllo everyone, swine flu is taking over the world!!!!! ahhhhh,save the pigsss. hais. some people had misunderstanding the one will get swine flu if they eat pigs and if you dont you wont get. FUCK LA. they all had the wrong concept. what the fuck right??

On sunday i went to my dance school to take measurement for my ndp costume. then window shopped with shivani as i waited for hasmidah to have lunch. i ate TACOPACHI,woohoo. miiyda made her "grand entrance", then we went to food junction to have our lunch. she had ayam penyet and i had korean bbq beef set. while eating both of us got a message from nichole warning us on that the swin flu has reached alert5. siak ah, both of us lost our appetite. we were really afraid and not suprisingly, we realise that Singaporeans are still leading their lives like nothing happen. confirm when it come the DANGER everyone kiasu...hmm! In the evening, we had group study date! susu,miiyda and me. haha(: super fun.we actually studied very very hard and had so much fun!!

Today, theres english paper 1 and social studies. did my extreme best thought i missed out on a question which was worth 8m,i only write a sentence. clever right?? after school me and miiyda made our way to susu house cos she wanted to take her popular voucher and change and then hong kah cc cos i had to take the passport application form. then we go jp. window shopped and went popular to get some stuff. I GOT IRRITATED BY THE CASHIER! i use a voucher to pay for my stuff. i had my things and my mind was clear. but it had 60cent left and the delimma went:

cashier:

there is 60 cents left. do you want to get anythings to cover up the 60 cents?
luvenia:

no thanks(:
cashier:

are you sure? its 60cents.
luvenia:

(derhhh...) er, ya.its ok.
cashier:

you can get something like tibits or pen refil.
luvenia:

(can you shut up!) seriously its ohkay!!!
cashier:

sure ahh?
luvenia:

(fuck yes pleasee) yaaaaaaaa!!!

suhailah can't stop laughing. haha,i mean it only 60 cents seriously.and its not a big lost. my head ids clear when i got the things but that woman keep making me confuse. high blood pressure you know,hais! on the way back,worst. disturbed by three ITE guys. i seriously feel like slaping his face!! i felt pressured and cant eat me dearest McFlurry. nonsense. anyway thats all,yeah. lovesss(:

*i cant wait to see movie on friday(: i cant wait to join oschool with my darling on the 14th.*

FEEL THE HEAT

2009-04-30T21:33:00.002+08:00

hello darling(: exams are here.everyone feels the heat,at least most. i love yesterday! last day of happy happy. today all stresss. during physics out of a sudden for once, the whole class was suprisingly beautiful. all esp the three, Amali,Rahman & Kamal.it was such a great enviroment reallly! i was just telling Sara how appreciative i am 'for the moment' and i was loving it until i saw MR SU at the door, & he was talking about our good beheaviour and hopes we cont! lighting strikes and then i knew the guys were putting up a beautiful show infront mr su. once mr su left. THERE IT WENT THE MONKEYness of 3n3...oh why!!!!!!!!!too late to take back my words.
hard to believe ive got 2 1/2 years to put up with these cute idiots....boohoo(:

today, i had my first paper MOTHER TONGUE. there's good and bad news. good news is that the horrible paper is over first. bad news is that more horrible subjects are up! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! the paper wasnt too bad. for my letter writing i chose, FORMAL. i was praying badly the formal doesnt come out but in the end i felt the formal choice was to my preference. for compo the title i chose was argumentative. love it but wrong title. i was sleepy cos of my medicine, chose wrongly! hais. whatever la.

2mlr, meeting up with my dearest "sis". miss her lotss and lotss to catch up and studying too(:
goodnite people

Ask Me

2009-04-26T20:32:00.003+08:00

10 are you(s) ?
1. Are you single? - Yess
2. Are you happy? - Yes(:
3. Are you bored? - Neutral
4. Are you fair? - You bet.
5. Are you italian? - Hope too
6. Are you intelligent? - You can say so.
7. Are you honest? - Sometimess.
8. Are you nice? - I hope so(:
9. Are you irish? - Nope
10. Are you asian? - Hell yeaa!

10 fact(s) ?
1. Name - Luvenia Niikii Kannan
2. Nick - Papan, Niikii Kannan Kiri Kanan, Pen (:
3. Birthplace - Singapore...
4. Hair colour - Dark brown
5. Natural hairstyle - Pony tail.
6. Eye colour - Brown
7. Birthday - o4.February.1994
8. Mood - Crazy
9. Favourite colours(s)- Purple (: open to all
10. One place you like to visit - Japan

10 things about my love life?
1. Have you ever been in love? - Yeaa
2. Do you believe in love at first sight? - Sort of
3. Do you currently have a crush? - Yup
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally? - Yaa
5. Have you ever broke someone's heart? - Yeap
6. Have you ever had your heart broken? - Yaa
7. Have you ever liked someone, but never told them? - past 3 months.
8. Are you afraid of commitment? - Nopess
9. Who was the last person you hugged? - Kexin.
10. Who was the last one you said i love you to? - Miiyda (:

10 this or that(s)?
1. Love or lust? - Loveee
2. Hard liquor or beer? - Beer
3. Cat or dog? - Wooooff
4. A few best friends or any regular friends? - A few best friends
5. Creamy or crunchy? - Creamy
6. Pencil or pen? - Pen
7 Wild night out or romantic night in? - Really dependss.
8. Money or happiness? - Happinessss
9. Night or day? - Night
10. IM or phone? - Phoneee.

10 have you ever(s)?
1. Been caught sneaking out? - Don't rmb.
2. Seen a polar bear? - Yeap
3. Done something you regret? - You bet.
4. Bungee jumped? - from my bed,yesss.
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor? - When i sad.
6. Finished entire jaw breaker? - Naa
7. Been caught naked? - Yesss.oh my(:
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back? - Nopesss.
9. Cried because you lost a pet? - Yes!
10. Wanted to disappear? - Uh-huh

10 preferences in a partner?
1. Smile or eyes? - Bothhh
2. Light or dark hair? - Dark
3. Hugs or kisses? - Both (:
4. Shorter or taller? - Taller
5. Intelligent or Attraction? - Bothhh!
6. Topman or Zara? - Topman
7. Funny or serious? - Funny.
8. Older or younger? - Older
9. Outoing or quiet? - Outgoing
10. Sweet or bad? - Sweetttt(:

10 Have you(s)?
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd? - Lotss
2. Ever talked on the phone for more than 1 hour? - Yupss
3. Ever walked on hands? - Cant!
4. Ever been to a rock concert? - Nooo
5. Ever been in a cheerleading team? - Nopee
6. Ever been in a dance team? - Yeaa, still am.
7. Ever been in a sports team? - Rope skipping. i miss it.
8. Ever been n a drama play? - Yeaa
9. Ever owned a BMW/MercedesBenz/Escalade/Hummer/Bentley? - Would you believe? :)
10. Ever been in a rap video? - Naaa

10 last(s)
1. Last phone call you made? - Suhailah(:
2. Last person you hugged? - Kexin(:
3. Last person you hunged out with? - Miiyda, Uma(:
4. Last time you worked? - Housechores, this morning?
5. last person you talked to? - Daddy(:
6. Last person you IM'd? - Heng Yuan(:
7. Last person you texted? - Suhailah(:
8. Last person you went movie with? - Jacky, Justin, Alvin. last mth(:
9. Last person/thing missed? - Noj ):
10. Last website you visited? - youtube...

Audition!!!!!!!!

2009-04-26T19:59:00.003+08:00

hello! i went to the SYDC audition with miiyda.it was fun but i had the worst blank-out moments in my entire performing days. we had 3 tries. the best was the 2nd. for the third attempt i started out confident and in the middle i blanked out. normally if i blanked out, i can get the steps back immediately after watching the person beside me. but yesterday when i looked at the guy beside me,but the steps were allien to me at that time.........yess,i cried! im super dissapointed with myself.hais. RESULTS WILL OUT ON THE 10 MAY,ON SYDC BLOG. i want to get in,pleaseeee):

after the audi, miiyda and i met uma on the train and went down to bugis for dinner. went to starbucks,had a great time. unfortunately imah not there but i guess she did had a great time2. ill post the audi vid up soon.sorry!
lovess(:

MUST WATCH.....pleaseeeeeeeee

2009-04-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

you'll be super suprise. it not scary! PROMISE.

2009-04-24T17:31:00.003+08:00

Examinations are here;these times dont last

the results and outcomes does

jiayou everyone;push just a little more

it'll be over as soon as a blink of your eye(:

YOU CAN DO IT

hello everyone

2009-04-24T16:33:00.004+08:00

oh gosh,ive really slack bloging. im sorry people. pics for sports day are up. the soka arts and cultural open house rocked. i brought miiyda with me and yeah! we had fun(: btw, the audition is this sat, TOMORROW. i cant believe, after waiting for a year and a half for this day. ITS FINALLY HERE. miiyda is going with me again. sad imah and susu cant come, well to support me la cos i bet ill be nervous hard core. hahahahaha(:

wish me luck guys, i must must get in(: jiayou heng yuan, bryan, eugene and the rest.... i know and dont know!

school is like super tiring physically and mentally, esp this period when exams starts officially next thursday. mother tongue paper first! hmmm, not much to study, so not very scared. the paper im super afraid of is MATHEMATICS. booohoooo, memorising is still ohkay!! im aiming for 3 A2. FnN, Humanities & Sciences. mother tongue and maths b4. can already! im happy! haha(:
(PS. i finally got into examinations mode YESTERDAY,hais)

i want to see 17 again real bad!!!!!! suhailah, miiyda and pravina watch 2day. my daddy dont allow cos im sick and needs rest...booooo! haha,oh there was this small and funny little converstion between my dad and me.this was how it went:

day 1-
me: ive a feeling for taking diploma and home affairs. what do you think?
daddy: whats that?????
me: like what you are now la. police thingy.....immigration,blabla. derhhh
daddy: nonono.you cannot. to work in the police force got citeria one. you cant go!
me: (what derhhhh!) WHYYYYYYYY??? SO UNFAIR. I KNOW I PAPAN OHKAY WHAT!
daddy: only human can work as police. flamingos not allow! you want, be traffic police. stand in
one leg and control the roads. (laughs)

day 2-
me: see the ad! 3 years full time study for diploma in home affairs. cool right? i want work
there.....
daddy: i dont think so. cannot want! sure! haiya, you should go and work in the jurong bird park
la! just stand in one leg for the whole day and name yourself " Singapore's first black
flamingo"! (laughs with my mum)

FUNNY AHH????? ALAMAK.hais,what can i do???/so thinand tall just like my DAD, yet he still makes fun of me. what derhhhh. school also, FLIPSYSAH dont seem to get over the flamingo thing and they burst out their ass when you talk about anything related to these animals:

CHICKEN
FLAMINGO
DOG

PAPAN (not animal, once a liveg thing)

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so thats whatever going on so far, and whatever la! gotta prepare to go tgif. bye lovess.
jiayou me!!!!!!!
charge the people, one picture 10 dollar. very good money, also very suitable for you!

sorry

2009-04-14T20:54:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.im so sorry for not updating. ive been really busy,so yeah. ill post about all the details i n some other day when i got time. for now things that have happen in this two weeks are:

(someday)

went out with the FANTASTIC 4-somes,

dhoby ghaut,had dinner,catch a movie(NC 16), walk with fucking bruised feets!

lovessss them upside down,i miss you guys dearly....esp APEK. love you

(thursday to saturday)

went pasir ris for chalet with imah,her family & miiyda. rowks the law!!!! editing all pics. ill update real soon ehk, sorry dears.

(today)

practice for speech day. tiring seh. well well,it willl be over on friday anyways. :P

5 DAYS TO SYDC AUDITION REGISTRATION

MUST GET IN. JIAYOU

ohkay la.thats all i can say. talk about them in detail real soon. promise ._______.

love you all <3

jai ho-pussycat dolls

2009-04-07T21:21:00.001+08:00

Jai Ho - Pussycat Dolls & AR Rahman

RunRunRun

2009-04-07T21:08:00.002+08:00

SYF got silver.well i cried lots.super wrong judgement. we totally deserved GWH. gotta really prove to all on speech day.2mlr is speech day,im fucking not running!!!!!!!!!! no way! still gotta go early,hais. idk who gonna replace,hmmm??

anyway dance prac for teachers' is going great. this year we've a total new and freah idea for our performance. i really hope we get 3N support.hehe(: suhailah and pravina supporting their heart out alrd.

thats all for today,ily all<3>

2009-03-30T22:43:00.001+08:00

must catch this movie.dance vs sci fic.super dope yo(:

haha,anyone interested tel me ohkay?:-*

its here

2009-03-30T22:32:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.the day is here.

SFY

after 5 months of tuff training.......yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppp,its here!
im super excited and more excited,haha(: sad thing is that ill miss lots of lessons for the day,ill miss all my darlings,from the bottom of my heart<3. esp miiydo miiydo & fitwiie :P

JIAYOU YHID(: i can already imagine, recieving the prize.heh(: thats all i gotta say now. must sleep,wake up in the morning,yeah(:

lovesss.

2009-03-29T00:09:00.002+08:00

hello all,i cant sleep.super bored down here.hais.....................................
imy -----,seriously.hmmm,lalala! countdown to SYDC audition&SYF.i going nuts here people.
lovess,kexin!!!!!!!i cant wait to see her again....

LOTS to SAY

2009-03-26T14:53:00.003+08:00

hello everyone.ive been really busy with studies,friends,SYF and more.....so sorry guys.

first of all,ive got to say some wishes to some people:

Amali & Satria: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YOU GUYS; a year older! :D

Mirzwan : THANKS FOR HELP IN PHYSICS. thank you so much,appreciated<3

Kamal : GET WELL SOON BRO, hope you make the right choice,yeah(: come to school.....

(still can bully me seh:P)

Kien Li & DanielG: GET WELL SOON PEOPLE. you guys look total pale today,esp daniel. take care people.

ohkay,SYF is coming up this Tuesday!!!!!!!!! cant wait,im very scared2.The costumes are beautiful,jewellaries are amazing.dancers are the best.WE MUST GET GOLD WITH H. jiayou u(:

Justin, Caleb & Alvin: THANKS YOU DARLINGS for sending me home on friday,ily guys tonns.

thats all i got to say today everyone.goodnightssss(:

ROM on saturday - FROZEN on sunday - DAMAGED on monday

2009-03-16T20:26:00.003+08:00

hello peeps,i attended the R.O.M dinner of kamini akka on saturday.it was soooooooooo grand. i mean it was just like a wedding actually but it was only the engagement and solemenization. if this is alrd so WOW can you imagine how the wedding would be?haha(:

i wore a tubedress,looked great.haha.ive got ma new look,straight bangs!some say i look like the actress in Dragonball Revolution;or some Japanese girl.yupps.hate it or love it,this i the way it is. gotta get used to it!
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on Sunday,i had a superdupa great performance at the FD meeting. well,through the meeting i learn quite a number of things. one of it was : to be glad with the simpliest thing you have in life. its a more easier approach to life since you are always happy with whatever you get and dont have to be sad over anything at all,yeah! after the meeting,me and tracy made our way to Jurong Point to grap our dinner and guess what? we saw the Best Dance Crew competition.EXTREME dope la. i cant wait for the semi finals on the 28 and 29 march, hip hop workshop on the 11 april and grand finals on the 12 april.
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i officially had got my heel swell up and not allowed to dance for the next 2 weeks! FTL. SYF is coming up on the 31 march.stress ah.and i idk when the sydc audition will be on.lalallalla(:

thats all guys.Hi-Flier is tomorrow.gotta be at macs at 8,hais!update real soon darlings.
goodnight loves

2009-03-09T22:57:00.002+08:00

hello everyone.had a great day with my friends.upcoming b'days:

- satria

- fitri

- haikal

hehe,idk got who somemore. so far life in 3N really rock. im loving every single individual who revolve around me,and *** ***. haha(: just a close friend,a baby boy)

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happy day - today...

2009-03-08T00:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATIMAH <3

(no pictures updated...sorrry)

today is fatimah's birthday,070309. i had the most fun day for the start of the year. hehe(: after my dance class at bugis, i met with miiyda and imah at bugis. i had dinner @ burger kings. then we walked all the way to esplanade. we caught the soundtrack release of NOISE SINGAPORE. dope or what! the guy did a rap cover of miss independent, dedicated to his girlfriend. SWEET SWEET <3 we den walked and found a seat. we played 'everything in singapore' and star gazed! funny funny.___. at first miiyda and me were like seriously dranked (by food). we were extremely super duper out of our minds! and went we were going home, all of us were CRAZY...

in the bus,all of us died down. sleepy and tired(: reached home around 10.30 and wash up and blogging now. SLEEPY SEH .____.III
i gotta head to my lalaland now.so ill grap pics from imah blog soon and post it up. good nites darlingss. (:

PS. i miss my boyfriendsssssssss. i love miiyda n imah <3

messed up

2009-02-18T19:56:00.002+08:00

hello everyone. recently my life is seriously going thru a complicating rolller coaster ride. on top of it i am grounded. VERY SIAN RIGHT?

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

happy birthday to ALVIN. had a great day on vday. met up with my boss family,im them tonns. wanna meet them real soon again. musical is coming,choreo dance with heng yuan and friends. and much much more!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

im going crazy. i'll update soon whenever i can.i cant use the laptop actually so yeah. appologises for DEAD blog. ily....

i am soooo RETARD

2009-02-10T23:05:00.003+08:00

hello everyone(: im fucking groanded. yay ME ): i sneak my way through just to blog. lame right? i understand. anyway,nowaday just as i think that im a good friend,the next minute i feel that im the worst person you ever want to meet. my attitude makes all hate me. hais,i also appreciate those who accept me for my fucking retarded attitude but i wonder how long they can resist it. hmm,why oh why. this is the time i really want to seek WISDOM and COURAGE to break through and change for the better la.

but i just realise my mistake like this year and have just set my mind into changing. so i really hope you give me time la. its not like i can turn over in a blink of an eye. i know its too late,i retardly figured out this prob like at the last min when the world was abt to collapes. that is fucking RETARD la,i know. but what to do it has happen.so now i only can change myself to be more RESPONSIBLE,SENSIBLE and DISCIPLINE. ohhh myyy goodnesss.

STRESS !!!!!!!!!!

school, friends, family, myself, and other small matters. the older i get the more life seems to be sian leh. i want to cry.I WANT TO GO BACK TO PRIMARY SCHOOL.all i have to care about is have fun and study hard. that i have FAILED. i need to do serious dancing non-stop to release my stress....hais): i seem like a lost soul in the middle of nowhere!!!

in circles i go,

round and round

when will i find,

my destined path

hurt inside and out,

but i know you see

i retard and crazy,

same old me

i try and try,

to realise

and change for,

the reality

i hope i can break through,

finally

and then i'll stand

proud and tall ,

on track with what i should or meant to be.

well today, i had fun in school. susu was CRAZY. miiyda, imah took the vid of ourselves just having fun puttin steps together.its late now.so i promise to upload it 2molor when ive got the time. so i gotta have my "beauty sleeep" now. nitess darling.

One Wish

2009-02-04T23:00:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

hello(: well well well, ive turned 15 today!!!!!!! i had fun gettin bashed by my friends. siak! suhailah did not come to school,damn bored.haha! i stayed back to do FnN homework. i was still high when i came back home. so i straight away bath and dance dance dance! i find steps for One Wish by jRay. hehe~cant wait to start training. my school dance seriously wth! my muscles ard my tie is really gettin bigger and bigger. well,not to the the extent of some wrestler's muscle but as a dancer,WOW (: i gotta head to bed now,hope you like those vids. ^~^ily

if i had One Wish,

I'LL DANCE

I LOVE MY LIFE as it is...

2009-02-02T16:34:00.003+08:00

hello(: firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLLE ^~^..
school was great.i cooked pasta and pizza together with hasmidah during FnN. hehe(: funny funny story. i was very tired after recess,i slept halfway throughout my tamil test.haha. came home then dance dance dance.hahah(: 2 more days to my birthday!!!!!!!!! hahah.cant wait yaww.

REQUEST by JIESHI TAN,my laogong!

2009-02-02T16:32:00.002+08:00

LET IT SNOW by MING BRIDGES

so sick of him ):

2009-01-31T23:39:00.002+08:00

hello(: lots have been going through.im so sick of everything! there is only 2 things that kepp me happy: Dance,Music,Drawing,Reading!
i really dont wanna cry over him anymore. i swear ive never met anyone who is so self centred and wow,what do you know? he made a statement referring esp to me: GIRLS ARE POISIONESS...

my father have gone through heartbreaks by my mom.its from that i learn not to hurt anyone esp guys. i dont want to hurt guys no matter what. i neither like hurting them, it doesnt seem fair. that was my motive,so i started negleted him. and there he goes bringing back stupid memories of my ex and other stuff. im not the kindda girl who is true, my play around. so i do not want him to get hurt in the future. NOT understanding that, i (at least to him) became poisioness,just like other sluts.

___________PERIOD____________

finally, all darlings of mine are together again. i really had a great time during dance session,yeah (: i was crying almost the whole night. couldnt sleep too. im so in love with the song 'so sick' by Neyo. hmm,i want to sing but ive got the ugliest voice on earth man.haha. nvmnvm, gonna sleep darlings. ily. THANKS SUHAILAH!

i back in action (:

2009-01-26T22:02:00.004+08:00

100th post(:

helllo(: im back in singapore. im soooo happy yaw.its late so take about the trip another day plus the pics i manage to take. so ya,my life is ohkay so far now. i heard a old song which i loved when i was younger. now listening to the song,many stuff relates to it now,seriously! friends, family and ,got la someone. so i hope you all love the song too. btw,i miss everyone truefully. sing along:

THIS I PROMISE YOU

Ohh ohh...

When the visions around you,

Bring tears to your eyes

And all that surround you,

Are secrets and lies

I'll be your strength,

I'll give you hope,

Keeping your faith when it's gone

The one you should call,

Was standing here all along..

And I will take

You in my arms

And hold you right where you belong

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you

I've loved you forever,

In lifetimes before

And I promise you never...

Will you hurt anymore

I give you my word

I give you my heart (give you my heart)

This is a battle we've won

And with this vow,

Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)

Each loving day (each loving day)

I know this feeling won't go away (no..)

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)

When I hear you call

Without you in my life baby

I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)

You in my arms

And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes

Each loving day (each loving day)

I know this feeling won't go away (no..)

Every word I say is true

This I promise you

Every word I say is true

This I promise you

Ooh, I promise you...

DOPE night (:

2009-01-23T23:28:00.002+08:00

hello(: imah, miiyda, liza and me went mac and had dinner and den head down to T.G.I.F ! really fun seh. at first we bored la. den we had dance battle.woohoo (: haha. miiyda seriously when crazy. she dance dope seh! hahaha(: im really torn up now.

im leaving to batam on sunday morning. i want to sleep at home!!!!! hais (: anyways,ive got tomorrow and tuesday to complete my hmwks. maybe meeting up with miiyda, imah n WAN to study. hehe(: i really wanna study hard this year and of course the following 2 years ahead. im trying my best to NOT be in any relationships till den. idk how to put it to him. hais):

anyways had fun in school,cny celebration rawks. reminded me of my CNY performance at chinatown. i really miss everyone...wanna head to bed guys.im very sleepy now. cya BOSS FAMILY and FLIPSYAH really soon. im missing you all alrd. HEARTS<3

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

LYRICAL HIP HOP

BREAKING/B-BOYING

im really interested in b-girl and lyrical hip hop esp now. im baby freeze is ohkay la. need to build up upper body strenght now. im soooo weak (: i so into those 2 genre of dancing (:

Happy Day for My Favourite Bitch.

2009-01-20T21:08:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY MIIYDA (:

hello (: i hope hasmidah had a great day in school today. its her special day,so she MUST!! haha

but me and imah really miserable siak in school.during lessons,i miss her crazy laughter. i am like bloddy alone in class la,except for sometimes when some guys n girls talk to me la. hais, i wan to cry seh. the noisy one was absent,so class was damn not as noisy as its suppose to be la!

sad and terrible day in school;i wish someone would just change everything. just light up things... hmm:)haha. but for now i feel that nothing will actually stop me to cross my mountain. every that happens are obsticles and tips to success - top in cohort by the end of the year!

ily guys-all who were there. nitess:)

Quiet Angels - thanks to you barney

2009-01-20T21:00:00.003+08:00

special thanks to a barney that has been through with me and putting up with whatever i done and still you are here by my side,putting my views in the positive perspective!!! i know im not the best person in the world but i am trying my best to be one for you. when i cry,you lift me high up and then you say dont be sorry for what you do,just push it through. laughing at the worst and harhest moments and crying with joy at the best and enjoyable moments. this song is specially dedicated to you my dear, for beliving in me and making me believe you. :)

Dedicated To My Dear Friends...

2009-01-19T23:06:00.004+08:00

hello:) i am always never ever organised.thanks to me the whole day was miserable....me,me,me! i am so irresponsible. what to said (scream n swear) at me in public really did hurt and also an eye opener. i realise that not everyone is easy going and open minded. it really did hurt badly didn't it? when i saw you cry,i was extremely blured out. i've never seen that side of u since the start of sec 1 when we fourght. i too hate myself when i am late.
and whatever happen that day was an accident.i never did plan to meet fatimah before hand. i saw her at the bus stop.so we walk together. what you said in ur blog is very true. friends fight to grow stronger;thank you very much for making my realise that. you are a good friend. i'll change soon. i am trying my best now :)

2 lovable days in school (:

2009-01-17T00:07:00.004+08:00

credits: lizamarie

hello everyone.the past 2 days in school were extreme fun n cool. seriously im in love with chemistry once again. on thursday i got to play around with the PIPET and BURETTE. it was fun...the pipet looks abit digusting la,the bottom looks like a penis! PS.i miss BIOLOGY.

credits: me (:

coming back,later that day after school during chem remidial,my class did an experiment of CHROMATOGRAPHY. thats damn dope la. once the paper absorbed the water,the solution spread like RAINBOW (: jkjk,but i was cool. i seriously cant wait for next thursday,we will be doing an experiment on another seperation method, errrr, filtertion - i think.... (:

credits: me (:

yesterday, i went je popular to buy markers then went over to pravina's house to design the class motto and class rules,yeah. it was hell lot of fun. credits to SUHAILAH, PRAVINA and HASMIDAH. haha (: in the evening i went to T.G.I.F with liiza. it was very fun. alvin is now in Navy and he really changed. i coul'nt regconise him at first. (: he is cuter la now,i think because he got his hair short and nice.i think most guys look cute or better with shorter hair, yeah (:

credits: jody-pic
me-editing (:

thats all for the 2 days of fun (: cant wait for sunday,wee.

HANTAM !

2009-01-14T20:59:00.004+08:00

hello all! ok,im officially injured nw.read my story :

START,

after school,me and imah went tamp.meet up our friends. so yeah,we walked....den gang leader had a call that her friend kena hantam.went down to a block to confront the other gang leader. in the end we fight. hais. I AM A BLADDY BEGINNER to this kinda stuff. but no choice,if never do anything sure die la.so fight la. first girl ohkay la,nth happen.drama starts(for me)when the gang lead head towards me.she really hantam me damm fuck la! ya thats when i REALLY fourght. i pulled her hair,hit her boobs many times,kicked n my head hit her eye really really very..... hard. thats when i ran away......

imah was smewhere wen the fight was going on.when she cme bk,she stand there and nv do anyth. aft in the mrt hme den i realise i had scratches all over me hands n baluku on my head where i hit her. piang lehk!
END.

haha,not true incident la.it was a shooting scene,yeah.other den meeting with friend n phone call, the rest was true.seriously.i really kena hantam (bashed up).it was a short movie for the yellow ribbon project.it will be distributed to every schools (pri n sec) in singapore. OMG (: sure yuhua sec will see my face.sme mre i was hantam n act step.embarassing sial!

i swear i'd be whatever not a gangstress,seriously.i only do best at RUNNING AWAY from problem,as in frm fights!!!ahhhhh.....haha (:so imah did not manage to act with me but i guess had a great time and experience.next time we both willl act!and imah said i fight like dancing ballroom! wth rite? haha (:

thats all la darlings. im tired and my bruis on my head is hurting.so,post more stuff 2mlr (:

dying already!

2009-01-13T21:27:00.003+08:00

hello guys.i'm already dying in school. today,i had geog test.i was fucking tired since i did my school work like from 6pm to 12am n slept nearly at 1am aft packing my bag.so ya,im really worried!hais. im listening to River Flows In to You by Yiruma. its really very really especially by my kindda heart attack cases,yeah. hope you guys like it!

i really miss BOSS family nw,at this very moment,im actually recalling all the crazy n random moments we had during the holidays.hmm,i wonder if they feel the same.maybe yes maybe no; i cnt wait for sunday!i'm going to buy a book out of the 6 novels,I Believe You by Low Kay Hwa. he was a former student of YUHUA SECONDARY SCHOOL n now he is sudying in POLY. idk which one la. the stories are very very touching in different ways.i intent to buy all 6 novels slowly,yeah (: anyways gotta sleep. dont wan to drule in class.nites guys!!!!

Sunday Stress

2009-01-11T13:59:00.002+08:00

hello everyone again. so its sunday and both my parents are not at home. its totally a bore when u are stuck at home with no live entatainment. during the holis, me n the boss family hang real often, well due to the CNY dance prac of course. now it seems like my life is slowing down ( but wont stop,hehes ). its a coaster ride>.>.>.>weeee!

i still got my tamil readings to do n geog hmwk. for geog,ill do with imah ltr on but tamil is so stucked up. my texting has tremendously reduced too.during the holis, i made a record od 2000+ msgs in a mth, about 120 msgs per 3 days, 40 msgs per day. since i change my plan to singtel from starhub, the sim was activated only ystd. and so far 30 msgs only. ahhhhh! im plain bored now guys. all i do is study study n study. i miss dancing,yeah.

i miss EVERYTHING la,simple. i better get doing with my tamil hmwk right now. goodbye darlings :)

sec 1 CCA orintation

2009-01-10T20:47:00.006+08:00

hello guys :) well, today i woke up at 6.30 and went to school for my indian dance performance, yeah. thanks to suhailah i was on time. mrs rajoo was very very very tensed up. she is ALWAYS like that even for the sallest issue like, putting lipstick. she'll scream at us as though she just got an heart attack. so yeah, when all fine. all of us look pretty like fine ladies. hehe :) we did cam-whore tonns and i manage to tk a vid of my dance.

had late breakfast at MAC withimah,susu n fitri.i had fun. hehe :) den in the afternoon i went to bugis for my dance class. its very tiring,seriously. i almost fainted. haha, there would be a total drama if i faint. so i endure my dizziness n stomach cramps till the end n den i bourght a small piece of cake n ice milo.

yeah, thats for my day.hope u like those pics n enjoy the vid,yeah! i love you all :)

my loves....

2009-01-09T22:24:00.012+08:00

hey all,im back!i really miss my the BOSS family. hmm,wish to go out with them extreme soon! hmm,lets start with the first MISERABLE day thats familiar with all of us; FIRST DAY of school.

start,
here it goes.i was very nervous and the stupid new uniform really fugly!i drag myself to school, but as usual i got HIGH when i saw my friends,yeah. managed my way throughout the disciplinary lecture. like come on,its the first dayand the upper sec has lecturing.haha, den i went home.not used to waking up early after the holis, and i was very very tired and sleepy.hehe~
end...

2mlr there is Sec 1 orintation.gotta perform,yeah! i'll try to get a vid of it and put it up.oh,and do u guys know of the christmas MV by Ming Bridges? im in the vid,i was 1 of the audience in the crowd.enjoy the vid:

2:43 - 3:00;spot my crazy face!weird siak my face.....hehe :)
jieshi,qian hui,heng yuan and dean are in the vid tooz.but cnt be spotted.we just ate b4 the jumping....and yeah,my face like stupid coz got stich,OUCH!!!!!!!!!

gotta rest for now guys;it will b crazy 2mlr,so post soon darlings
please tag :D

CNY light up<3

2009-01-06T19:37:00.006+08:00

die hard fans of MAC!!

kenneth n me (CFG choreo)

finally its over!GREAT performance,GREAT day,GREAT friends and GREAT experiance. i miss all of them seriously....as a trainer,ive got to say all of them esp. from GROUP 1,they have all step out from their shells and become a better person physically and spirtually. its thru these types of activities where i tremendously enjoy and learn alot of things,mainly TEAMWORK. and yeeah,we worked really very very hard for abt a mth or two and finally,it paid off.

*applause for us*now its back to talking to textbooks for most of us and even still i hope all do their best in whatever and pus ourselves to the most for the best outcome.for me,the same.i really did badly the last round.now;i want to be the best.do the best.i'll be pushing myself very very hard this year and of course the 2 mre years down the road...

so thats' whatever ive gotta say abt it.no more fun its serious stufff nw.gonna go bk to my bks. ily alll peeps.looking forward to a whole new chapter of my life,dancing n more.i'llbe training hard to get thru the audition of Soka Youth Dance Crew (SYDC) this march.till then, ciaos :D

XOXO

2008-12-29T16:59:00.005+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS n HAPPY NEW YEAR to all

hey all,sry for not updating for probably a week or two.im very sick here n bz with my dance. i sprained my neck like 3 days ago.haha :D 1st day of school really sian!disipline lectures,and class organisation stuffs.oh.....and i became the SPORTS LEADER,lol :) thanks alot to susu begum! hais,i wanna become FnN rep. but nvm la.no choice alrd.but seriously, SPORTS!!!!that topic has seriously nth to do with me,other than DANCE.i dont mind being a dance leader.no prob man. but sports????i SWEAR im not taking part in sports day anymore man!!!!!!!!! thats really not what i do,except for 2.4 run.tt one no choice.hehe

btw,the pics above were taken on the 31st meeting at Singapore Soka Association HQ.hehe :D very sad,no one took video for now...ill check out.if dun have ill take vid wen i perform this sun. im performing again.and also 2mlr for CNY light up,yeah! i cnt wait yaww.all of us trained hard and JY us,yeah! ily ^~^

JP2

2008-12-17T00:23:00.004+08:00

i went jp2 with my parents for shoppin on sunday...total damage : $153

not bad la.i bourght my school bag from square , a butterfly blouse from surfers paradise , a wallet,a pouch and a pencilbox from the wallet shop.and we went around and around.i den had dinner at fig & olive.food - terrible,price - not reasonable.total damage : $90. hais,anywhere,i kindda spotted some typo error as i was roaming.enjoy!!

the spelling of dining....spelt as 'DINNING'.

its suppose to be opening ON not AT.

hahaha.btw,im done with posting.ill promise to post about today by this week.im really tired and packed the whole moth with dancing,dancing,and more dancing!hmm,goodnight darlings.

2008-12-12T22:07:00.003+08:00

past 4 days,urban clickX really die die got dance practice...really exhasting seh.we got CNY light up dance practice and FYP carnival dance competition....sian hor!but as young phoniex,we will not give up!and all of are participating in the marina countdown ball signing thing.haha. very packed and at the same time im having tonns of fun!!! yesterday,i jumped from the bus to the curb of the pavement as i was alighting the bus and i sprain my second toe.....very pain!!!!!!!

today,nick,ben,wei kiat,jieshi,qianhui,olivia and me practice dance in the afternoon.hehe (: nick really really dance very well.i took a candid video of the guy dancing [and playing a little]. enjoyyyy.good night everyone;looking forward to school reopening.i miss all lots! -Pendoliie';loves you

Quiz - OliBurBur

2008-12-09T14:16:00.005+08:00

1. Who is the person who tagged you?
Olivia..

2. Relationship between you and him?
Grand daughter :D

3. Five impression of her?
Crazy , siao , friendly , lovable , scary. hahas XD

4. If she becomes your enemy , will you?
I will sit down there and do nothing XD

5. What would you like to say to the person you like very much?
*speechless!!

6. Characteristic I like about myself?
i like dancing alot!i love myself more den i love others;jkjk

7. Characteristic i hate about myself?
tonns....

8. For the person you hate you say?
*silence......

9. What do people feel about you?
Dunno.i dun want ta know

10. Your crush?
* u dun need to know la...

11. Pass this to 10 peoples
1 - Suhailah
2 - Fatimah
3 - Hayati
4 - Benjamin
5 - Qian hui
6 - Heng yuan
7 - Jieshi
8 - Fiona
9 - Vanessa
10-Nadiah

12. If 5 & 7 were tgt? Qian hui & Li Ming
They are not lesbians O.o

13. What does 5 like? Qian hui
She loves disturbing me..

14. What colour does number 9 like? Vanessa
idk. bright colours i guess,like blue,white!

15. Say something about number 8? Fiona
Get Well Soon !!

16.Who is number 2? Fatimah
My Tall Buddy :]

17. Talk about number 3? Hayati
Paperdoll;what else can i say!!!!! *fly,fly,fly

18. Who's number 10's best friend? Nadia
i dont know.i know her for like her day...

19. Who is the sexiest among the 10 people?
hahhaha.you dont want to know!!!!! hahahaha ^^

20. What colour does 4 like? Benjamin
Black??

21. Is 4 single? Benjamin
idk (:

22. Your relationship with number 1? Suhailah
my baby sis :]

23. Are 5 & 6 bestfriends ? Qian hui & heng yuan
might be. ^^

24. 9's surname? shu en
I dunno. :X

25. 7's nickname? JieShi
Tan

26. Say something to 8. Fiona
i say alrd.....

27. Say something to help 9.Vanessa
help....

28. Who does number 1 admire?Suhailah
many peeps

29. Where does number 1 lives? Suhailah
Jurong West

30. Does 10 of them know who you like?
only 4 of them...haha

31. Say something to 6 when you see him?
Jie Jie....hahahaha

32. 10's spouse?nadiah
she has one;but ive got no idea who he is :X

YPS AcedemyCAMP

2008-12-09T12:09:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY jieshi [laogong]...

finally you are 14!!!! lol >.<

on saturday and sunday,ma went to camp. Young Phoniex Space Acedamy. it was totally of the hook man. new friendship forged.old friendships strenghten....on the night of the camp fire,campfire commitee pulled it off. we rawk the night.the best part was the band. P'reamble was rocking of with some music and unfortunately only us commitee plus our friends enjoyed and scream here and there [having fun]. it was surely a good treat for us!rest were shhhhhhhhh!i really hated their attitude.but in the end, SO WHAT!!

my group URSA is really fun to be with.they are loud and crazy. i swear i love them HARDCORE baby!the members are :

Nicholas, Aaron, Kok Wai, Alex, Jamie, Vanesa, Qian Hui and ME.

we are the bears from planet JINX. haha.we had tonns of fun from the camp and also learned alot....trust me,seriously alot!the othe rsub commitee did do a excellent job.YAY THEM :D

this is the anderson waves,the place where a part of the shootin gof the chinese show 'by your side' took place.after watching the scene,i craved to go there...and yay i did on the second day of the camp.there were some challanges and quiz to complete.its a beautiful place.surrounded by nature...woooohoooo

everything has to come to an end. boss's family went vivo to makan makan....had fun. nw we've gotta practice hard for our dance competition,...JIAYOU xD

happy birthday

2008-12-03T21:27:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA

i made 'cheesy chicken pasta'.it taste sooooooooooo goooooooddddddddd.hahhaha.i took just 1 hr to make.ill make it some day soon for christmas.hehe.

the pics are up for the music video of MING,europe band.hhehe.the pics inculde other dearest calefares.i love them tonns.

QUIZ-hayati

2008-12-01T22:47:00.003+08:00

#1. What characteristic(s) must your "love" have?
everything a hope my perfect guy should have.

#2. What musical instrument(s) would you like to be able to play?
the guitar or drums!

#3. Who do you turn to when you need help?
friends,friends,friends

#4. What is your most favourite sport ever?
rope skipping;jump jump jump

#5. If you could be anywhere, where would you be?
paradise island.

#6. What gets you angry?
continuos irritation >.<

#7. What would you like to tell the person that likes you?
wassup?!

#8. Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?
in poly;always daddy's princezz !!

#9. Have you ever fallen for someone?
of course like derhh; almost everyday XD

#10. What do you think of the word "love"?
a painful joy that everyone wants to go through with.

#11. What do you wish for right now?
sleep!haha

#12. What do you want ?
to be happy everyday,great sucess in everything me,my friends n family get into :D

#13. What is your perspective of sec. school?
another chapter of my life,bringing me closer to who i want to be.

#14. What do you love?
music, books, movies, clothes, friends, shoppin', text

#15. What do you feel when you see a fight between friends?
i wanna patch back with them real soon.SOORRY

#16. What is your second profession?
im a dancer.

#17. If you could change something in the world what would you change?
the perspective of most singaporeans that terminal illness such as AIDS or disablity.

#18. If love should ever so-happen to "slap you on the face" what would you do?
really try my best to move on faster instead of drulling over the prob T.T

#19. Why?
c'mon la.i rather move on and be happy wiith my life....

#20. Out of all relationships,which lasted the longest?
the second.i dont regret breaking up! *im a free lady*

1 december was fun

2008-12-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

im sorry darling darling of the world for nt posting for so long.ill reach out to ya comments asap.such as changing my song.I WILL SOON :D

today i had shooting for a music video with some of the RHQ4hippers,uma and her friend,Germane.fun or what.it was held in a pub.so u guys should know wht kind of atmosphere we had to give WITHOUT music.the lead singer name was Ming,a caucasian[however its spelt].we jump jump jump jump jump jump jump......
u get the point la.very tiring seh.lots of stupid peeps ard act step seh.assssss

than when for meeting.1 hr slack,next hr dance like freak.exhausted!!!!!!!!!!after that i went wooodlance for shopping.i bourght a hoodie with the animated pics on it.i think they are cute!and i met wanny,suhaila [nt frm flipsyah],n BELLA.i miss the fun we had at the back of the class. ily darling. than reached hme at 9.im tired!but ive gt the energy to post.heheh XD

Madaggascar 2

2008-11-21T19:05:00.005+08:00

i watch that movie with miiyda,pravina,yati,fitri and fitri's sis.its really a funny movie.hahah.

there's this character which really cracks me up.thats moto moto;the male hippopotamus. cute sial! hahahaha.aniways.i had a great day with them!than in the evening i actually had dance practise for trainers at 7.30 but i forgot.hhahahahah!next week on monday there will be the last pactise for indian dance this year!wooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooo

what can i say;everyone neeeds a break............

muaks :D

Bali Thai Restaurant.

2008-11-19T19:11:00.006+08:00

hey peeps.last saturday i went to imm after ma dance class. i had a terribly tiring day and managed to eat tonns. haha. aniways there was seriously lots of food and it cost 250 bucks. not bad ehk. peeps with me were ma 2 grandmothers, bro, dad, mom, maid and of course MA. hahas. i had a great time. den we went grocery shoppin. we bourght many many things. total cost was 250 bucks too. hahaha. so thats it that day.

dying

2008-11-14T16:31:00.002+08:00

its very very tiring having to go for dance trice a week.my knees are red,swallon,theres tonns of blue black scares on my butt,tie and feet!i swear its tiring. BUT i can actually visualise the dance already.its very unique.well,my previous teacher,mrs vickneshwari,is quite famous among the indian tv stn.and she teaches many school for indian dance.so the style and energy is almost alike throughout the SYF competition.for next year,my new teacher has actually come up with a dance that is totally different,a whole new type of energy and style into the dance which i feel that is worth injuring my body for.in the end is our face [indian dance students] who will have to face our school judging on the performance.surely i guess ot only me would lose face,probably everyone would if we didnt do a good job.lst year we got gold and this year we aim for something higher, GOLD WITH HONOUR

we actually completed half of the dance.hopefully we complete the whole dance by the end of november and no dance practice during december and we only got to polish up when school reopens!hooooray!

hahaha.fatimah is gettting really......idk what to say.she is obsess with her job.shes missing out on the fun she is suppose to get.i dun care if she gets angry that im wanting to control her or whatever.i just want her to realy get back into track with flipsyah and also her STUDIES.we're alrady sec 3 next year.its no more happy-go-lucky year animore.no time to slack.i just dun get why she dun get it?!she depends everything on mandaki and keep saying she can cope.she keep forgetting her plans fort eh next day such as indian dance.its very obvious that she lie and get away for her forgetfulness.ahhhhh! I SWEAR IDK WHATS UP INTO HER NOW. i really really really wish she'd stop working once school starts and not cont'.if i cant force her,i only cn tell her and hope for the best of her.hmmmmm ):

ily guys......update soon;promise!

curse of true love

2008-11-12T19:10:00.003+08:00

hey sygs sygs out there.my bro pierced his ears today.me and prav late for dance.susu never come.talked about tonge twisters;french kissing.hmmmm
i really got nothing to say guys.........im brd!

my muscles on my tie,and arm are developing.very very painful.nowadays i feel really insecure.idk why seriously.thats alll la guys.i love you all!!!!!

InSecure

2008-11-11T21:18:00.003+08:00

sorry guys for no updating for a long time....
haha!so,last week i went swimming with miiyda,imah,prav,yati,alifa and fitwie. we really did have tonns of fun!haha.after swimming i invited them over to my house for makan.i lost my wallet also.sad sad!suhailah coul'd not make it for both ;]

my daddy gonna bring me to the rihanna live concert.wooohooo.
suhailah gurl borght new hp.i love it.im probably the last with the sony shaker hp.it sucks baby! lalala.ive got dance tomorrow and on friday.my body is seriously aching.pain pain!maybe ill gotto go jp popular bkshop to buy assesment bks.HEADSTART for sec 3.it feels like im in jail almost 24/7.i wanna go school seriously!

btw,on the 17 nov,next mon, streaming results would be out.cant wait and also i would be buying the new school uniform and school books.hehehe.congrats to FATIMAH for getting through the interview and getting the job.hehe.thats all i got now guys.update real soon

i miss dancing hip hop;boo sign off

Fish Leong - Lu

2008-11-03T17:34:00.001+08:00

This ia seriously very very sweet!

i couldnt get the lyrics though!HAIS.aniways its a old song but ENJOY please...

peach boxers

2008-11-03T17:32:00.001+08:00

my peach flowered boxers tore half when i attemp to do spilt.hais.that was totally stupid siak.
RIP - 31 Oct 2008 to 2 Nov 2008
it surely dint live long...........hais

dance dance dance

2008-11-03T16:37:00.006+08:00

next three days,there's dance!we are preparing for SYF 2009.trying to finish at least half of the dance in november as the dance instructor is going overseas for some study course for two weeks in december.so probably we will come back to polish the dance and when school reopens,we would complete and polish more.for the sec1 orintation next year,we plan to do 'something something' but the teacher in charge of this cca wants to do the SYF dance.is she nuts like seriously we are preparing this bladdy dance for SYF and i think it should be a BAM for everyone when we show it to them after SYF for other shows.......

[kimchi noodle]

no comments la.whatever students dont really have alot of say!so ya.....whatever for now.tomorow there is dance practise at 1130.no choice gotto go.i kindda over strech my leg muscle....its very painfullll.........

i love chilli padi

yesterday,my dad spend over 50 bucks for two story books and a set of baby pooh and friends soft toys........they are really cute!hehe

the books are THE ROAD OF LOST INNOCENCE and MARLEY AND ME.

THE ROAD OF LOST INNOCENCE by SOMALY MAM

a true story of somaly mam,a cambodian, being raped and fled sexual slavery and now devotes her life in recuing others.

in cambodia,girls as young as five are sold into protitution everyday.Somaly Mam was one such girl.abandoned as a baby,Somaly wa looked after her grandmother until she dissapeared.she was than taken into the care of a man she called "grandfather",but was treated no better than an unpaid servant.Raped at twelve and forced to marry at fifteen,Somaly was then sold to a brothel.after years of abuse she managed to escape,and went on to co-found AFESIP to combat the sexual trafficking of young girls and woman.

MARLEY AND ME by JOHN GROGAN

life and love with the world's worst dog.

john and jenny were young and in lovewith a perfect little house and not a care in the world.then they bourght home Marley,a wiggly yellow furball of a puppy-and their life would never be the same.Marley quickly grew into abarreling,ninety-seven pound steamroller of a Labrador retriver who crash through screen doors,flung drool on guests,stole women undergarments,devoured couches and fine jewelry,and was expelled for obidience school.yet Marley's heart was pure,and he remain a steadfast model for love and devotion for the growing family through pregnency,birth,heartbreaks and joy,right to the inevitable goodbye....

i am not telling all of this for nothing.this hollie there's english project.this story books might help u.trust me that not all books are boring.there are books out which can probably make u cry.i read about 2 books already,TUESDAY WITH MORRIE and CHINESE CINDERELLA. beatiful stories they are!currently reading UNLOVED.all true story,emotional ones hehehe.

SO THATS ALL IVE GOT TO SHARE TODAY GUYS.HOPE IT HAD BENEFITED U GUYS IN A WAY OR ANOTHER!ily all

[iPendoliie]-krazylie fall for you

lakepark

2008-10-31T23:16:00.003+08:00

wel lake park with filpsyah excluding fitwie and aliffa.my DAD bourght me a peach boxer.i wore it today AND it seem like my panties....haiyoyoy tambi.
aniways,u guys enjoy the long video of us being crazy!peaceout

million miles away

2008-10-29T12:13:00.001+08:00

LYRICS:

I'd love to make you mine

'Cause it's the only way to hold you

In my wild imagination

Still I don't know how

To grab a chance and spend some time in just

A simple conversation

Chorus:

Just give it a try

Though I'm like chasing rainbows in the sky

I wanna hold you in my dreams

And make believe that it's true

Although I know, I know

That it's impossible to do

'Cause you're a star

People love you as you are

You're a million miles away from me

Wish that you were here

'Cause it's illusions everytime you're close to me

And sing me love songs

And it's the only way

I could tell the world I love you

Although you're a million miles away

Chorus 2:[x2]

Just give it a try

Though I'm like chasing rainbows in the sky

I wanna hold you in my dreams

And make believe that it's true

Although I know, I know

That it's impossible to do

'Cause you're a star

You're a star

You're a million miles away from me

can i have this dance

2008-10-28T18:04:00.002+08:00

LYRICS :

Take my hand, take a breath

Pull me close, and take one step

Keep your eyes locked on mine

And let the music be your guide

(Troy and Gabriella)

Now won't you promise me

(Won't you promise me)

That you'll never forget (That we'll keep dancing)

To keep dancing (To keep dancing)

Where ever we go next

(Troy and Gabriella)

It's like catching lightening

The chances of of finding, someone like you

It's one in a million

The chances of feeling the way we do

And with every step together

We just keep on getting better

So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?)

Can I have this dance?

(Gabriella)

Ooooooh! No mountains to high enough

(Troy and Gabriella)

No oceans to wide

Cuz together or not,

Our dance wont stop

Let it rain, let it pour

What we have is worth fighting for

You know I believe, that we were meant to beeeee

(Gabriella) Yeeeaaaaahhhh!

(Troy and Gabriella)

It's like catching lightening

The chances of of finding, someone like you (Oooh like you)

It's one in a million

The chances of feeling the way we do (The way we do)

And with every step together

We just keep on getting better

So can I have this dance? (Can I have this dance?)

Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance? (This dance)

Can I have this dance?]

Quotes I ADORE

2008-10-28T15:20:00.005+08:00

LOVE :

The way to love anything

is to realize that it might be lost.

- G. K. Chesterton -

Love is not needing a snooze button on your alarm clock

because when it goes off the first time in the morning

the thoughts of your loved one

make it impossible to fall back asleep.

- Natasha Harris -

INSPIRATIONAL :

All men who have achieved great things

have been great dreamers.

- Orison Swett Marden -

A champion is someone who gets up,even when he can't.

- Jack Dempsey -

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile,

and finds in your presence that life is worth while.

So when you are lonely, remember it's true

Somebody somewhere is thinking of you.

- K. Blackburn -

Life is short, break the rules, forgive quickly,

kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably,

and never regret anything that made you smile.

- Author Unknown -

FRIENDSHIP :

A friend is like a four leaf clover,

hard to find but lucky to have.

- Samantha Rosales -

A friend is someone who walks in

when the whole world has walked out.

- Author Unknown -

Side by side or miles apart,

good friends are always

close to the heart.

- Author Unknown -

Happy Deepavali

2008-10-27T21:10:00.002+08:00

hey yawwz, today is deepavali
i wish all u guys out there who revoles ard me

HAPPY DEEPAVALI

wishh all to have a great time with your family!!!
ily sayangs....

High School Musica 3

2008-10-26T12:20:00.004+08:00

on friday,flipsyah [excluding fitri and aliffa]went to jp to catch HSM 3.that movie is the best out of all three HSM series.the stroy is seriously inspiring.seriously,to me it was very meaningful and i dont find the reason why some parents dont allow their child to watch it.hais....the sweet songs of vanessa and zac singing i cn melt siak...hahaha

aniways,we had lots of fun.imah was totally out the hook.her outfit seriously rawked!!hehehe.i cnt wait for prom.....all girls dream.

THE NIGHT OF ALL NIGHTS....

thats all for now sygs.ilys and toodles

anti drug shoot

2008-10-23T18:07:00.002+08:00

well yawws,i had shooting today.i woke up at 6 and came home at 2.abot 7 hours there.4 hours waiting plus 3 hours shooting the same act over and over again.its for some anti drug campaign.it was afun experience.i earned 50 bucks.10 bucks went to my mom as commission.so 40 bucks for my saving for shopping next month.yeah baby.i wanna buy school bag!

aniways,i went to school after the shoot, to collect my report book and option form.OHKY LA MY MARKS.boleh tahan.heheh.i only fail my geography by a few marks la.thats about it.confirm next year there would be new school uniform.ha........ha.........ha!

thats it babys.gtg.ilyz

bling bling

2008-10-22T15:06:00.002+08:00

i did not go school today.lazy plus sick.i bling up my camera.ohkay la.i wanna go school tomorrow bout ive got shooting.hais.on friday gonna watch high school musical 3 in the afternoon.i might meet up with pravina than collect my report book in the morning.hehe.thats it.im very bored...

bugis

2008-10-21T21:16:00.004+08:00

i went to bugis on monday with imah and miiyda.i went later than them.we bourght a watch for $5, waist belt $10 and i mah bourght me and miiyda a chain.3 for $10.ily imah.[even if you never buy the chain la ehk.]we than walk to esplanade.funny incident happen.hahaha.we ran out of the toilet screaming...long story.hhahahaha.we went home by mrt from city hall stn.thats all for girls day out.lots of noise and laughter!ily my girls.

Jalan Raye

2008-10-17T21:19:00.008+08:00

hey guys wassup.ohkay,ive finally bath and wash my hair.hhahahaha,sry.in the afternoon after school.i was late as usual.abit only ehk.first we went aliffa's house.her mom tall sia.i love her baju kurung.makan snacks,took group photo.next stop was imah's house, than fitri AND finally susu begum.finally at susu hse we ate.i was so hungry.thanks susu!!

When Its Over

2008-10-15T21:38:00.002+08:00

wen time when pass
i see you true
with hopes high up
hoping you'll be mine

but there came someone new
into our story of crave
thats when you saw me
cry to myself deep inside

u hold back
as u always do
than the truth was out
a truth worth million from my heart

its simply over
between you and me
just friends we are
preferbly...

EYE results are out

2008-10-15T20:53:00.002+08:00

hey yaww wassup peepos.hahaahha.i am quite delighted with my marks.soooo here there are:

English paper 2 - 59/80
Maths paper 1 [NA] - 42/50
Maths paper 1 [E] - 46/50
Art - 83/100 _ highest sial!!!im nt boasting

- investigation and interpretation of theme 14/15
- exploration and developement of theme 12/15
- aesthetic qualities 17/25
- selection and control of materials and technical processes 23/25
- personal response 20/20 - hehe

Tamil paper 1 - 40/70
Tamil paper 2 - 44/60
GEOGRAPHY - 16/50 _what the fuck sia.
Science paper 2 - 45/70 _ despite stupidness
History - 32.5/50 _no comments
Maths paper 2 [NA] - 46/50
Maths paper 2 [E] - 36/70 _ FREAK YOU KNOW!

thats all abt marks!!!!!!!!!!hehe
[iPendoliie] - lurve cookie monster

Please For Me

2008-10-14T19:16:00.003+08:00

study hard if you want me
its not as easy as ABC
when its time,you have to strive
so then youll be able to feed me
during good times or bad

love me all you want
but love to study too
when you archieve,i believe
you are the right one for me

till than, WAIT ,would be the word ill see.........

my maid

2008-10-14T14:25:00.003+08:00

well,ma maid went back today at 2.00pm.i miss her tonns edy.i really love her tonns.she cried b4 she went off.she worked here for about 6 months i guess.she called once she gt to the airport.and yeah,she asked me to take good care of my grandmother and not to be a lazy bum.hahaha.what cn i say!ma a lazybumbum.wakaka

ohkay,so...they about all the delimma for today.im really bored right now and like ive been thinking about maids.well,the truth would be,we as employees should really give them the respect as much as they are giving us.they are actually helpers for those who cant help themself.
cant help thrmselves probably for some reasons such as old age or even being lazy.....not me ah!!

haha.so yeahthats what ive been tinking about.i feel really stupid actually!haha.whatever.well thats it.ive gt school tomorrow,aft that im meeting up with a old friend of mine,no la,it anuja and new friend mithunn.he is studying in commonwealth sec.the fucking scholl i dreamed of going..................but,my daddy thought that it would also be a great place to hang out with friends or make romance since there is a reserviour right opposite of teh school.what the hell.aniways,idk what we ould be doing tomorrow seriously as watching a movie wouldnt be very appropriate as mithunn would be the guy,boho.makan and chattink would be the possibilities i guess.

whatever it is, it all be decided tomorrow . itt take picture and upload probably.thats all for now.peaceout peepos.

[iPendoliie]-cokiemonstress

exams are over!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-13T20:27:00.005+08:00

finaly baby!exams are over.its time to party....2mlr no skul.marking day.i even more stress seh!
tak boleh tahan the suspense.for sure i no tt i gt low marks for geography n science ppr.hais!
express maths ppr was very very tough.tt stupid teacher didnt give a min to complete the last qs.i was abt to calculate the ans for pythogrus theorm[hwever its spelled la].asshole la.bitch bitch.hais

NA ppr is simple.for me la.but gt careless mistakes la.heng cher helped me out.haha.nt cheatink la ehk.den i wen lakepark with susu.hahahah.she ah!no commentss.scared of everyth hahahaha.i really had a enjoyable open minded day with her.talks tonns.

on my way to lakepark,i saw [beautifulpeep] i heart.hehe.we play at the playground.den we go hme la.fun la!hehe.

"i may know you for probably a month
or two
but i cant say the same for the love i have for you

puppy or true
i still love you
instead of second chance for her
why not a chance for me

well i guess its up to you
if you want me or not
ive confess my side of the chapter
but you yet to

for the frst time
we hang out together
i feel warm
but shy too

your warm laughter
gets me hypnotised
through the lies
i can probably find

hiding those thoughts
from all to see
when i blush secretly. "

thats it guys,my feeling all thrown out.hahaha
gtg guys;peaceout

[iPendoliie]-cookie monster is loved

MESSAGE TO SUHAILAH

2008-10-12T17:21:00.002+08:00

hey bby gurl.thinking abt it.its actually nt the exams.i of course understand u guys study differently from me.ive gt to study with noise,fun n laughter.if i would to study all alone by myself.ill for sure end up sleeping on the table.haha

and i am seriously not angry that imah is not going out with me animore.since young ive always gone thru the feeling or situations where i am alone all the time.its simply nothing for me especially knowing that i still do have many around me like u,bella n more.

the whole problem is not with you guys.its simply the way i am.i study with noise.in my house,24/7 it will be noisy.ttz y i cnt study alone.i understand u guys.im nt forcing u guys to give me a listening ear for my problems and must study with or what so ever.i simply wish i could be who i was before.simply alone.now that ive got many friends,when im alone i feel difficult.i feel that I AM PULLING MYSELF AWAY rather than U GUYS MOVING AWAY FROM ME.get it?!?!there's a difference.

slashing my hands helps me to think of what i did or whats happening[in lay man term, i stop panicink.]hais.i dun know la.i just its be nice hanging out with u for a difference.but i guess after exams la kay?nt 2mlr.i love you tooz bby.gd luck for exams.

relates to me in a way or another

2008-10-12T16:06:00.004+08:00

there are a release of new song which r actually possible to b related to my life now.they are:
- one step at a time by jordin sparks

its like at this point in time of my life ive seriously got to take things slow move with one step at a time.not to rush in everuthing i do.esp in my love life.and to archieve what i want, ive gt to tk a step at time slowly until i succeed.so ya....ttz it!

- crush by david archuleta

ohkay!this song is based on ma love life before n now.ive got a crush on a 15 year old guy and....i dont know if i should make the first move cuz tt guy is seriously tkink it slow.i gd aniways,it shows that he is thoughtful and take things slow which is good la ehk.

- 7 things by miley cyrus

this song is dedicated to my ex bf.well,im simply nt in love with him animore.we r just friends but 6 months of wonderful memories of us deep in my heart.so.......this song truly relates to him!

go to my friendster profile and catch the song.lovable song!the blog oso have but u guys cn choose.so...ya!peaceot lovable peepos..

[iPendoliie]-cookie monster is loved

i feel lonely

2008-10-10T16:49:00.002+08:00

hey peepos.nwadays i feel really alone.the distance between me and my friends.i feel very negleted in whatever i am doink.the person who really knows every update of me is anuja.my best friend!we meet every saturday [due to dance class].her mom is very strict and i cnt call her all the time.she dont come onl9 frequently.she does nt have a hp.its once in ablue moon that she will text me [with her mom's hp].

for the pass few days or should i say weeks,i feel that im moving away from ma girls.no more dancing,no more playground and no more life talks with her.i use to talk to imah my heart open when we go lakepark and sit at our fav spot and lie down and talk about the latest updates of ourseleves.but nwadays,eveything has changed.its either i go out with the whole gang or be alone.i am the only one who lives to the north from my school while the rest stays or travel back home the oppsite direction.

seriously i don't mean to say this cause i wanna be popular among peeps or get attention but seriously i feel seperated all the time.talking about imah new route of life doesnt mean that i am jealous that she's no more spending time with me or angry with her or whatever but more to that i feel exiled from those around me.all i thought i cn depend or express my feelings too have all change or probably moved on.I AM STUCKED!

to me it seems like no one wants to be friend me anymore or trying to move away from me.like in whatever they do,i am no more part of it.slowly.....i dissapear at times.on top of this,i fucking slacked in my studies.i seriously am very very hell dissapointed in my performance for the end of year exams.i surely bet that i must have deproved alot.from third in class,i suspect i would be above the ranking of 10th position.hais.i am seriously back into my slashing busniess.every night without fail,i slash myself.then only i cn sleep.the only peepos i cn tok to is anuja and no one else.

i feel different,from my interest till every other things,i am different.i love intellectual talks and advising others,others dont.they think its boring and a waste of time listening.i love life speeches,but others think they are crazy.i love going to parks and have a heartfelt talks to at least a person but what can i say?!everyone has moved on.they've gt new company or whatso ever.hmm!being onl9 is also another stupid thing.no one chats with me.other than once in a blue moon.i accept i am nt a very fun full tym slacking and crazy bitch peeps like to be with.I AM DIFFERENT.i am totally the opposite.

thats the one of many reasons i am seperated.i guess i was meant to be who i am right now.just miserable.

only i am

through the nights that come

just lonely with the thoughts

that run through my mind

never justified;neither classified

thats all peoples;peaceout

[iPendoliie] - cookiemonstress

EXAMS ARE OVER NEXT MONDAY

2008-10-09T16:08:00.003+08:00

2mlr no skul.best or what!every damm pprs are over

EXCEPT for express maths ppr 2 n NA maths ppr 2.all the teachers say that ppr 2 for both NA and express are more difficult den ppr 1.im more scared for express ppr.ahhh!

about 2mlr,FIPSYAH decidink to go swimmink.idk if i cn or nt.my daddy dun allow me go out durink exams period.wtf.i know ive seriously been takink everything so relaxed and all,but i do study too.but there are some careless incidents that happened too,caused by nerveousness!

geogarphy, prbably oni get 20 marks.fark.science section c,oni chose 1 qs intead of three.

i was so fucked up.i cried for 2 damn days!haiss;next was the accidental incident abt ma eyebrow.long story,dun wanna brag.wakaka.aniways,yst my grandmother caught my eyebrow and there was world war THREE.thx to me!its all over today.

i 4gt to bring shah's pix to skul.its for the exams.my maid later DID brought it to school but!the fucink security guard dun wan to send it to my class.he said that we students are havink our exams and that he cnt pass the ppr.my maid did nt ask him to kol me down but ask him to GO TO MY CLASS.she den send it to the office and the stupid office did nt kol me down.asshole peepos.

luckily shah smehw gt sme pix,heng la.I AM EVRY SORRY SHAH.well,that all for 2day.peaceout peepos.

[iPendoliie] - hearts cookiemonster!

English Paper 2 and Literature

2008-10-03T16:36:00.002+08:00

woooohooooo.language papers over.mother tongue,english.maths is up,science.
2 stress subjects.in humanities,literature is over.geography n history cuming up.geo surely easii to score.history must read!!!!!!!booohooo

monday there's express maths and geography.im nt baosting by say 'express maths'.ive gt to tk NA maths paper too but nt on mon.its for streaming....wth la.ish!!

aniways,i probably would be going to jasmine's hse to do maths revision 2mlr.susu n miiyda cnt cum cuz gt dog at her hse.boohooz again.ltr ill be going for dance class.yay!!im loving dance so much.

i would probably be taking part in DanceWorkz next yr. training starts on the 13 october.last day of examination.wehe!imah n miiyda dun wanna join.i realy wish they'd b in.but i also dun wanna force them.i really hope they would nt be angry with me for joining danceworks with hazlina n bella.i love u guys always!!!

aniways ttz abt it n probably i'd gonna slack aft the exams too.ani1 wanna slack count me in!
for nw,gotta studiie hard.wish me lotsa lucks though.peaceout!

Selamat Hari Raya

2008-10-01T14:46:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

maaf zahir dan batin [:

to all muslim friend of mine!!!

have an enjoyable month guys.

PS; to FIPSYAH

17 october 2008

Jalan Raya

12pm to 4pm

*invite other friends tooz

the more the merrier....hehe

peaceout'

Mother Tongue Paper 1 and 2

2008-09-29T16:19:00.002+08:00

wooooohooooo.hatered subject is over.mt paper 1 and 2.well,for both papers i finished last,out of the 3 indian students n my clas(including me).ttz pravina n susu.they did theirs papers so fast.im scared that i get band 4 or 5 again.weeehee :( kays.aniways.i really hope 3 of us get gd grades.

MT paper 1 :
composition and letter writing

i want to cry seh.for the letter writing i gave many opinion/comments on the topic and ya...IM STRONGER IN THE COMMENTS BUT NOT THE LANGUAGE.the maximum is 80 words n i wrote 134 words.

for the composision,more comments and nt gd at the languages part.i reliously feel tt i would to lose alot of marks on it!boohoo for me.

MT paper 2 :

ive seriously have the feelings of all instincts n everything else tt ill score.seriously

1) i did not sleep
2)i check the paper like a zillion tyms la!
3)first tym in nikie history, I DID NT SLEEP FOR MT PAPER

ttz the reasons for having gd feelings abt tt.so...aft skul,went hme.on the way i went 7n11 n bourght fav chocolate.wee.quickly went onl9 (at hme alrd) n finally i met [ insertname ] i m soooooooooooooooooooo happyyyyyyyyyyy.we chat for half an hour and had to go.we r meting 2mlr!

i am so in hearts with you :D

nikkie cant wait for :-

-exams to be over,like derhh

-go jalan raya on [ insertdate ]

-watch HSM 3 [ itsnotlame ]

-go swimming with flipsyah

-get mark [ mustfuckingenterexpress ]

i seriously am fighting for the best place in class.im nt a nerd [ fyi ] . i simply have this deep crave in me since like sec 1.peepos who knows me [ i mean like seriously know me ] know tt i want to get into the express stream really badly.all ard me,peeps say tt its difficult to cope. WHATTHEFUCKISTHERETOCOPEWITH.like tell me,express and the normal academic student go thru like the same syllbus, just tt express goes more indepth. but still its the same.i want to go express.iwantiwantiwant.

just hope for the best for me guys [ if you want ].

Special Thanks To :

SUHAILAH BEGUM

you have really helped me in many ways such as in tamil.u really worry for me and pravina.u could have just care abt urself and want to be the best,but u reminded me esp with my usual mistakes.thank you very much hunny.ily alot.i m sure nt to let ya hope on me go down the drain.

i hearts u tonns

tz all guys.gd luck to all of you.

PS. luve me or hate me. i luve all of u.

Heaven

2008-09-29T16:18:00.001+08:00

English Paper

2008-09-26T21:05:00.002+08:00

weeeeheeee,my english paer 1 is over...BUT i wrote lotsa extra words.for the composition, my limit was 350words but wrote 473 words......wth la.unbelievable.for the pass one week ive nt eaten properly....im suffering from gastric pain.its really painful.

im under stress too.my grandmother suspect im doing bad stuff on the net.she SUSPECT ME?she says that that might be the reason for me to use the net everyday.the real reason is that im wait for [insertname] to come onl9.i want to chat with that person la.we've nt seen each other onl9.i miss ...

i saw the movie meet the robinsons.its a very sweet movie.i love its motive,'keep moving forward'...ttz a very ,meaningful motive,dun you think so?!?!hahaha.okay.ttz all for today...gd luck for the exams guys.thank you!!!

EXAMS IN 3 DAYS TIME.

2008-09-23T19:42:00.003+08:00

well well well, my exams are in 3 days time. first paper is english. a subject i can pass with flying colours. its maths i fear for.im having my math mock exams tomorrow and i yet to study.monday blues...i woke up late and felt really tired.i did not want to go school but there's like only a few days before my exams would start.so i dont wanna miss any lessons.i must not.

today i studied with my best friend anuja.she is from jwss.ilovehertonns.aniways,after school,went home,then left home at around like 2.30 and reached boon lay mrt stn at abt 3.00 and then went library.on her way [anuja],saw [sme1] ya..ttz totally unfair la.nvmnvm.
i will meet up 1 day!after around 4, we left.had a great day with her.gotta hang more with her and plus [insertnames] !!!weeeeeheee.i cnt wait for the exams to be over!

now i gotta study for my maths.goodbye peepos and good luck for your examinations.peaceout!

Replys To Tags

2008-09-20T10:26:00.002+08:00

Hellboy Frea:
u spelled ur nick name wrongly!!!hahahaha.
aniways,goodluck for ya exams to.ily tonns XD

Imah:
ive msg him all u said.im really sry gurl.idk what to say but....i just he's just ur passing could and dont take it too hard.exams are up next week and study hard and always remember that nothing is permenet in this world either earth,so be happy till its around and never regret.study now and dont regret the marks...ily tonns

Replys To Tags

2008-09-18T01:43:00.001+08:00

Imah :
ill tag ya soon tooz....

Bella :
hey baby gurl,ive link all of yaz...YOU TOO.
ily2z

i am absent

2008-09-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

i did not go school today.i got my period and have stomach cramp.

AND i have no idea how i sleep and i kinda hurt my back.very painful...

so i edit my blog,chit chat and of course i study. ive got 3 tests tomorrow.STRESS.exams up in 7 days (1 WEEK) and im in enjoying mood still.haiz.i simply cant get myself into the exam mood like i usually do.watever la.

yesterday i had my english oral after school and home econs practical exam during school hours.we were given ingredients for a pasta and was askeed to create whatever we want but something thats healthy.well,i pair up with hayati.instead of making the pasta the usual way...i make it totally differently.after the 3 periods (1 and a half hours) the teacher asked evryone to give their opinion on the food by all.they nomiated some pairs for thier food and was given extra marks.my pair's dish was selected too.i am very very happy and proud.the teacher commented that the dish was different but abit dry.well,agreed and ill improve.CREDITS GOES TO HAYATI TOO!!!

thatz all.im feeling better now and ill be heading to school in the morning.hmm...gonna sleep already.peaceout peoples...

Buka Puasa

2008-09-17T23:09:00.003+08:00

the 3 greens and 1 blue (grass and water?)

Last friday was Aliffa's birthday.
we thought of FLIPSYAH hangout at imm. but the birthday girl herself was going to break fast at her relative's house. so me,miiyda,imah and fitri went to imm to break fast together, play at the playground and buy present for aliffa. i got her a keychain with the letter E.

3 of them buka puasa at 7 +. it was cool to see the way they break fast.ive not actually seen people breaking fast before.hehe.aniways, we took pics,played at the playground.thats about it.

i appologise that i cnt upload the pics from my hp as the memory card has gt virus by my school computer and only can be read by the hp but not by the computers....sorrie and ciaoz

puberty ceremony!!!

2008-09-05T23:47:00.002+08:00

wassup!!!finally my puberty ceremony is over!!

woohoo.i woke up at 12, wen onl9 to c if *sme1 was onl9.not onl9 so i offfl9 la.den i ate mutton bryani.nice sia.haha.den i relax jer.btw i pray an hour fer ma friend in the US.he was fighting for his life actually.i pity him...i prayed that he should either die quickly n peacefully (coz i dun wan hym to suffer long) n he should survive,he should recover soon!

my prayers answered!!!he survive, he straight away ask me kol hym.he said that it was seriously a miracle that he actually isn't dead.OF COURSE THE KING WILL NOT DIE.aniways, he said that he is surviving by oni a jab of injection.it would probably last till ard 6pm...thats wen my function actually start.i was sad.but did not gave up on hym.i stil prayed in my heart.

at the function,complicated!!nth much.BUT, at 8.25,leroy friend sms me tt,leroy passed out!wen asked what he meant,no reply.im not sure if hez dead or not.but i hope the best for hym.and ive got 1 thing to tell him....

"thanks for being a part of my life.i may have not known u for long but i'll not forget whatever we have talked and texted over the phone.it is a very memorable one.you may have don lots of bad stuff right now.but in your next life,as my faith and i believe in,i hope you change for the better.as a friend of yours,im glad im a part of your life too.i hope for your peaceful death.a death of no struggle.thank you my friend once again.you'll forever be in my memory and of course Uma.goodbye for now,LeRoy.i love you!
THE KING OF THE KINGS WILL NOT DIE, FROM OUR HEARTS"

THATS WHAT I LOVE TO SAY.finally,the pics of today,i'll post it in the next post.uma yet to send it to me...
goodnite peepos.luv ya all.love ya LeRoy

2008-09-04T23:37:00.000+08:00

I FOUGHT WITH MY FRIEND

2008-09-02T20:28:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD.......

i actually made my friend really upset that she wouldn't to come to my ceremony.oh fark me!!!!
i cant believe this is all happening becoz of me.i noe she is very sensitive and hot tempered.i just shouldn't have done that.if there could be a chance to rewind to yst.i would want to never do what i did.....

plz girl!!!i really m very sorry for what i've done.i was angry!!i jush said what was on my mind.i din't thought of doing any editing to the msg.

haiyaaaa!!!thats all la.
PS.dont be so sensitive la ehk!!
ily lots XD

i permed my hair

2008-09-02T20:04:00.002+08:00

wooohoooo...

the thing is that its not very curly atm. cuz the hairdresser blowed my hair. he said it'll be very curly after i wash it...so....WOOHOO!

oh, and i think i'm in love....

i won't tell you with who.

oh, uma wants to use the comp again. oh, and go read her blog too!

byebye.